I started a book on the flight home from Denver called the Time Lottery. It's just a little Christian fiction, where three people get the chance to travel back into their own pasts and correct a mistake they've made, most likely one that's "haunted them for all of these years" sort of thing.
Anyway, I just expected it to be a quick and easy read, but surprisingly, (it is quick and easy) it really plunged me into thought about where I would go in my past if given the chance. It's such a weird thing. There are times when I feel really grateful for my life, for my past, and all of the many many mistakes I've made because of the person I am because of them and how I know Jesus in ways I'm not sure would have been possible otherwise. But, on the other hand, there's always that little twinge of regret when you think of a time period in your life. An opportunity I wish I had seized, a person I had kept in better touch with, a decision that altered the course of my life in a way I wish I could take back.
Silly and absurd as this might sound, I think I would go back to high school. I hated high school. I don't think there are words to describe it, my grandmother told me she had never seen me look as happy as I did the night I graduated. But there were people in my life then that I wish were in my life now, and if I had the chance to erase the time and distance that removed us from each other, I would like to do that. There are others who are still in my life that I wish I had spent more time with during those days.
Apart from those things though, the truth is that I never really want to go back to high school. It was dreadful! :-)
If you care to share, what about you?
Monday, July 10, 2006
Time Travel
Posted by Amy at 12:52 PM
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I , too, try to keep the mindset of "don't regret your past, it has made you into who you are today", and I am proud of who I am. There are a few minor things I would have liked to have done, like telling someone how I REALLY felt. Yes, you may actually think of a couple of good ones, Amy! Especially in high school (dreadful, I agree).
But the truth is that I don't want to go back and change anything. There are some moments in my past I would like to relive. There are also people I would love to see one last time, but as far as altering my past, I'd say thanks, but no thanks.
Also, glad to hear you had a good time in Denver!
Um, well what if you would go back and change something in in someone else's past? Does that count?
Guess what, Amy. Tragedy has struck. I am blocked from Yahoo email and from adding to my blog and probably from posting to yours. I HATE MY JOB!! If I didn't hate it before, I really hate it now.
I'm not blocked from posting to your blog! That's good. But I can't update mine or my website. I asked my boss if I could talk w/ her today. Via outlook email. So, I'm roped in now.
I'll try to let you know how it goes.
wow, changing someone else's life? that's a little scary!
You know, Jen, I would like to relive some moments, free of emotional bias, and see how they actually played out. Or maybe just watch them on tv. You know, see how I would perceive some things now that I have more understanding in life. And I'm detached from the emotions.
I'd like to relive some particularly wonderful moments as well.
So in the last few days, I've been given a revelation from God. The stuff in his past (the stuff I would change about someone else's life) would change him. He'd be different. He wouldn't be who I love and he wouldn't be who loves me. And I can't even think about life w/o him, life with someone else. So, yeah, God was like "um, duh! I DO know what I'm doing. Hello!"
the book sounds like it's some real food for thought. . I also HATED high school! My comments in my grad blurb in the year book went like this: "It's been a long four years and I'm glad it's over!" LOL! My whole life I've felt like an 'old soul'. . high school - i felt like almost everyone there was a baby and i just felt somehow older than even the older students. . What would i change from my past? Oh, I can't even begin to think about it!!!
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