Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Jealousy and Book Bloggers

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The awesome Maggie Stiefvater tweeted a link that caught my attention yesterday and I've been thinking of it all day. It was a response in an advice column for writers about jealousy. The entire advice column is made of gold and will provide you with hours of distraction if you haven't read it before, so please don't leave yet, stick around for what I have to say!

I love the book blogging community. I've found it to be a really fun place and also really supportive. I've traveled cross country multiple times to see friends I've met in this community and I've laughed and had fun, and geeked out over books, and stayed in your homes, and I LOVE YOU ALL OKAY?

At the same time, there's an undercurrent of tension I often feel that occasionally explodes out into the open in the form of attacks on other bloggers that I feel are motivated by jealousy. And I'm not really surprised by that...with the increasing attention placed on bloggers by the publishing industry we are more than just a group of friends loving books together, we are also seeing our blogs used as marketing tools, and opportunities present themselves. And some blogs have huge readerships and get every ARC they could ever want and exclusives with authors and invited to private lunches and breakfasts at BEA and are getting hired to write reviews or speak on panels or other job opportunities and that's just the way it is.

And OF COURSE we sometimes feel jealous of each other. We are all doing the same thing here, we are all giving up our time and loving books and writing about them and trying to figure out Twitter and RSS and html and paying for giveaways and ignoring the people in our lives so we can finish that book in time for the blog tour. Some of us have more money than others and can travel to conventions and book festivals. Some of us live closer to big cities where there are more opportunities.

I have to confess I am sometimes envious of what other bloggers get. I was envious of everyone that got Forever by Maggie Steifvater, Legend by Marie Lu, and Pure by Julianna Baggott ARCs at BEA. When some book bloggers got iPads to promote a TV show I was already planning on watching--I'm not going to lie I felt a little bit of envy then, too. Not because I don't think they deserve them, but how come I'm always ignored? When @atrandom was tweeting about bloggers night out in New York, I felt envious of all those living so close to such great opportunities, when I have to drive at least an hour just to get to an independent bookstore.

It's the nature of what we do. We first got on our computers to squelch the silence, to create a space that was ours to talk about books, to build bridges out there in cyber land, to find others who are thinking about stories the way we do and loving the way words are spun together to capture truths about life. We wanted to know and find the other people who were wide eyed with delight over the books we've read and loved and to come out of our bookworm closets. For some of us, this is the strongest connection we have to other readers and for the first time we discovered that those bookish habits and quirks of ours were not ours alone.

Of course we have other goals and with increased opportunities to connect with authors, publishers, booksellers, and others the landscape has changed and continues changing. We find it's possible to develop new goals for our blogs and take them into a different direction.

As this continues to happen, though, I suspect the jealousy factor will continue to play a role. There are people would blame it on so many of us being women, and others who would suggest it's just about the free stuff. I don't really think it is, though. While I'm sure we all love whatever perks we get, the truth is that I don't think we're given enough credit for our blogs. Our blogs are our babies, if we were authors they would be equivalent to our books. I know many of us spend hours a week on our blogs. We think about them a lot. Some of us bare our souls. We travel to learn how to be better about blogging, we spend money on hosting, design, and more. And when opportunities come up it feels like validation that what we're doing is important. Someone has noticed our blog is worthwhile! Our work matters. If you scale it down, it's the same way we feel when we get a comment or watch our subscriber number rising.

So that's why I think this advice column can be relevant to us as well. Our personal success as a blogger has nothing to do with anyone but ourselves. If someone else is successful, it doesn't mean we aren't and it has nothing at all to do with us. (I heard Sarah Wendell spoke on that at the Book Blogger Convention, that we have to define our own success and that's so true!) Just because we aren't getting all the big ARCs or aren't invited to be part of the hot new promotions, or being asked to moderate panels, or even if we only have ten readers, that does not mean we're not successful. If you are writing what you want to write, and reading what you want to read, and enjoying it and contributing to the larger conversation about books--then congratulations.

Are book bloggers influential? I think so. I watched some of Klout's Twitter chat yesterday and they posed the question, "what is influence?" The most popular response had to do with actionable results and that's generally the kind of influence publishers are looking for, I'm sure. Are people buying the books you talk about? And yes I've been influenced by a lot of bloggers to buy books or to read them and blog about them myself. But one person said they saw influence to be more about provoking thought and I couldn't agree more. There are book bloggers who have had a huge, I would say life changing influence on me, not because of the books they write about but the way they write about them. They've opened up their own lives and thoughts to me in such a way that much like reading a really great book, I was able to consider ideas different than my own.

You could be having that very same influence on someone without ever knowing it! You could mention something in a review that rocks someone's world, or introduce them to a book that will change their lives. I feel like this is the sweetest kind of influence any blogger can have. It goes beyond selling copies of books and it matters.

I am of the belief that one book blogger's success is a success for us all, it's why we have BBAW Awards. I think when we celebrate one of us we are celebrating all of us. We are part of something bigger, I often think, than our individual blogs. We are all part of the big ongoing conversation about stories and how we receive them and we are helping to shape and influence the future of them as a collective group.

But individually if you are loving the reading and you are writing what you want and enjoying the heck out of it, then don't let anything else get you down. When the occasion to be jealous arises, remember how awesome it is to even be able to do this book blogging thing. Remember that you matter. What you do matters if it brings you joy.


Amy

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What a great post, Amy! I totally agree with everything you said. We have to be content with ourselves and our blogs. If we're not, then something is wrong and we need to step back and reevaluate. It is great to work with authors and publishers, but in the end, I just want to read and write about what I read. Same thing I was doing before I was blogging, with pen and paper!
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Well said!

And I want to say that book bloggers are the biggest influence on my reading habits. Especially when I choose books outside my normal genres. I find that I "know" the bloggers better than I know critics and so I put more weight on what a blogger I've been following for a while has to say about a book
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Wow, Amy, thank you. This is incredible and honest and lovely. I don't really get into the drama of blogging, thank goodness, but I've seen it around. This post really handles the situation well so thank you. :O)
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Amy, so much of everything in my blogging world begins with you. Your influence can be measured in ways I don't think you'll ever know. Here, with this post, you approach such important issues, and you do it so honestly and beautifully. Thank you for that, and for all that you do.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
So impressed with your words, Amy and proud to call you my friend! To think we have connected even though I live on another continent, far, far away :) I love that it is books and blogging that has brought us together!

Though, I agree, the iPad does tempt the green eyed monster - LOL!!!
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Excellent post, Amy, and much to think about.
Nicely put Amy :)
Excellent post! I feel my own twinges of jealousy but luckily they don't last long.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Excellent post!
I began book blogging because my friends were asking what I was reading, and they couldn't keep up with me. I thought if I put it all into a blog, it would be easier for me to share. Then I discovered the world of book blogging and ARC's and I'll admit that at first I wondered "ok, how can I get there quick?" But I learned that if you want to stay true to yourself and your writing, there is no quick way of getting there. Those things come over time, as long as you remain authentic.

I'm so happy I became a book blogger, not just because I'm writing, but because being a part of this community has done so much for my reading. I have always loved books and always had one on the go but now my tastes have been broadened and I've discovered so many gems and wonderful people. That is more important to me than gifts....though seriously, an iPad?
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I love this post...thank you so much...as a relatively new blogger who craves comments...I need to listen more to my own little inner voice...I am so thrilled every time an author...with a first book...reaches out to me to ask if I will review it knowing that on my little blog...hardly anyone will see it...thank goodness for goodreads!!!
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Amy this is a great post and I will be reading that article right after I comment.

I won't lie, I admit that the green eyed monster comes out when I see what goodies others are getting and wonder why not me but I would never call out someone. All that jealousy I keep to myself because I realize that its not me but the location I live in. Sadly Canada sucks for getting anything good sent here.

Amy, I think your blog was one of the first ones I stumbled upon when blogging and having only spoken with you briefly at the 2010 BEA you are just like you are in real life. You have done alot of the book blogging community. I love reading what you have to say because you say with sincerity and honesty.
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I love this post! <3
Awesome post, Amy! And, it reminds me of just this morning... I was answering a Booking Through Thursday question about reading reviews, and I wanted to mention a few of the bloggers that I love getting book recommendations from (due to reading their reviews on their blogs)... but I hesitated. And, it was solely because, in naming a few, I didn't want to make anyone else jealous. :( I didn't want anyone to feel left out, but there is NO WAY I could name all of my favorite blogs in the space given, or you'd have been reading forever! LOL. And, regardless of whether I named them all, there'd always still be someone who felt "left out" for being unnamed.

You can't please everyone, unfortunately.

Admittedly, I get jealous of other bloggers from time-to-time for all the reasons you mentioned. But, I go and journal my frustrations in my paperback journal, rather than airing them in "public" (on my blog). ;) LOL
2 replies · active 718 weeks ago
Amy, sometimes the topics you share and the way your write are just inspired. I am in awe at your wisdom and the easy way you have of making the reader feel empathy and understanding. You've got a gift for sure!

Seems this topic comes up a few times a year and the drama ensues. From what I can see, BEA and all the events surrounding inspires much of it. I think we all need to remember where we were 10 years ago. What were you doing then? What were you reading and who were talking about those books with?

I blog because I like it. I share what I read because it makes me happy. And that's all I have to say about that. :-)
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Great post. I have never had envy or jealousy of another blog. I think good for them. Yeah, I was giddy reading all the posts about mountains of ARC's they received, but I again thought, good for them. I always feel my time is coming. I can actually feel a new season approaching for me, so when my season does arrive, I hope people are happy for me and thinking their season is coming too. Loved your post, great points and uplifting as well.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
You are a genius. I love your honesty (in saying what I'm sure many of us feel but don't want to write) and your advice. I WILL make my own success, and I'll find contentment in that. Thank you for writing this post!
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I have to admit that I'm glad my goals in blogging never had to do with numbers in any way. The longer i'm in this, the less I want to be a big blogger, the less I want ARCs, the less I want to market and keep up with all that. It feels very relaxing at this point to sink into the background the way I've slowly been going the last six months. Eventually I will be a nobody in the book blogging world, and I don't feel bad about that at all.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Amen, Amy. You make some incredibly good points. I used to be very envious of all types of things that have to do with blogging, but in the past year or so that has really calmed down. I guess it all has to do with perspective, and when I stepped back and realized that if I didn't get the hottest ARCS that it was totally ok, because I could just buy the books for myself. When I realized that I am doing this for myself, and nobody else, I started having more fun and being more free.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Wonderful post. Thought provoking. Thank you.
I think that part of the jealousy also stems from a dissatisfaction with one's own self and accomplishments -- if you are unable to see your own successes and achievements and be happy about them, how can you view others' achievements as benefits to the whole book blogging community? It also depends upon whether you believe that you are a part of the community and once you see your role in the community as beneficial, only then can you view others' achievements in the same way.

I think jealousy in book blogging is pervasive and will continue to grow as it gains new members. As someone has already said, reassess yourself and your blog if you become jealous. I've always loved talking about books with Anna, and we just happened to bring our conversations online. That will always be the core of what I do...sharing the books and poets I love.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
Excellent post - this is happening all over the place, not just in book blogs. I used to write a fashion blog and, though I myself wasn't that successful, I would see other fashionistas attacked all the time. Always because of jealousy, either the expensive clothes they were able to buy, by the free bling and swag they got from sponsors, or success in press, etc. Even I was attacked, usually because of the way I looked, or maybe they were tired of my "non-negative" posts. Who the hell knows... obviously can't please everyone.

THIS happens to me now too. Not as a blogger but as an author and publisher. Haters gonna hate, and I've personally been attacked with bad reviews BEFORE THE BOOK CAME OUT. It's one thing when you are getting snide comments, it's another when it becomes an all-out attempt to hurt your book sales (or, as in book blogger's cases, your blog's reputation). These girls took the trailer for my book, gave it 72 dislikes within an hour of it's upload, and THEN spammed it on horror sites and message boards, pretending to BE ME and trying to get me in trouble. It's amazing the lengths people will go.

The internet has many wonderful people, but unfortunately the douchebuckets, trolls and jealous biatches ruin it for a lot of people. Something about anonymity that really brings out the worst in human beings.

Glad you spoke up about it. It won't stop, sadly, but sometimes you really want someone else to say something on behalf of EVERYONE else.

Karina
An excellent post - particularly relevant after BEA. I posted something similar, though a bit more personal, about my own book envy and how to overcome it after ALA midwinter last year. It's something we all deal with at some point, I think. It's how we deal with it that matters.
You're so right, Melissa! It's definitely in how we deal with it.
Amy, this is such a great post. I am so grateful to be part of the book blogging community. It's easy to feel jealous of others, but I feel like the positives of being part of such a great group is enough to out weigh any other thoughts.
1 reply · active 718 weeks ago
I love when you get all think-y like this, Amy - you're one of the best at bringing these "climate of the community" reflections together.

I've struggled with surges of blogger jealousy now and then throughout four years of blogging, and I'm sure I still will. It's only recently struck me that I could be the object of another blogger's jealousy...it seems like there's always someone else who's already in the place we'd like to be. But there's room for everyone.

Sarah Wendell did talk about defining success in our own terms in her BBC keynote; she also compared having a website to having a child, as you did in saying "Our blogs are our babies." Are you sure you weren't there? :)

(Oh, and I may be able to hook you up with something to assuage some of that ARC envy...e-mail me!)
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